Depression ?????

( This my experience only , experiences vary widely and what works for one may not work for another )

When I first got Ill , in fact for a long time I was going to my doctors with various symptoms only to be told its in m head or am I depressed?? , do i need to speak to someone??

Infact it has become a subject that angers me

I changed my doctors to get away from it and it was the best decision i have made so  far in my ME/CFS journey , when i changed doctors i made a appointment with a doctors and said this is what is going on , it is not in my head its not stress or depression and i need you to help me
Thank god i have not been asked that question since, I was put on anti depressants for a while but to help with the symptoms not my state of mind unfortunately the did nothing for my health and i was taken off them
I got a Letter from a specialist that i will be going to see soon and in it was a questionnaire , I was disheartened to see that most of the questions relate to depression , Looking through this made me think about my state of mind now... Am I now depressed??

whilst just before I got Ill I was highly stressed by my job. I had become anxious about going to work . The job was very stressful and there wasn't really any time off even at home I was at work.
However I was getting married it was the summer I had a well payed job , Life all in all was good

There was alot of stress as I was getting ill, family issues had me on edge and i was becoming increasingly unwell, Over time I took what control I could and cut out the stresses of life , I had to leave my job and cut contact with people who caused stress .
 Life got better but my health did not
Now other than health my life is good , No real stress or big problems yet now I would say im lower than I have been in years
The answer I think is simple though I had a lot on m plate I was blessed with a good outlook on life , I could see the bigger picture and I was happy in life, life has its stresses after all, yes I was getting ill but surely it will pass
18 months later im worse in health than ever , im sick and tired of being sick and tired, It been some time since I had a  day and felt ok, what I count as a good day now isnt what a good day was a year ago Im bored , I ache I feel sick , cant concentrate on anything at all  and I just feel Ill,
So yes I am low , who wouldn't be , Any human being would not want to live this life , Some would say this is depression
Myself I think I am low because of my circumstances , I was not Depressed when I got Ill and Im not convinced I am depressed now , I currently have very little life or fight in me but I know myself well enough to know the fight will come back and I want help with my illness not constant questioning on my state of mind..... please
You know your state of mind be true to what you know and dont allow anyone to tell you its in your head or because your depressed , march on and make sure you get the help you deserve .